break

hearing the way your heartbeat broke
all the way
breaking me down
[slightly]
{coordinating}
wondering why you
held me without
wanting me to
feel.

you you you you you
(that's my pulse)
me me me me me
(that's my voice)
hushing me without your fingers left to quiet
my hiccups
and break ups
i can't feel

except that i can

i wonder if you're reading
too far away
reading way too far in
just to see if my mind
is already crying
for your
young tongue
back.
Mine is turning black
but
i still can't.

i wish i could say yes