Ruin-ed

I'm pushing buttons

and

squeezing on the airplanes 

trying to 

see or maybe

just know.

no. 

trying to see

if 

I can, 

ya know,

trust you again. 

I'm pushing your buttons to see if you push back. 

I would've said yes if you'd bothered to ask. 

But I'm not saying anything

now. 

Now you'll never know. 

I won't tell you why either.